I used to babysit a lot. I didn't do much else socially. One couple that I babysat for (James and Joby Best) were very aware of my family situation and were encouraging me to do something, have an outlet of some sort. She was a dancing teacher and he was an actor and acting teacher.

I actually started acting because I couldn't dance. First, Joby asked me to take a ballet class, then jazz, then modern interpretive dance. But I found it very difficult to just let go and express my feelings physically. At that age I was modeling professionally, so I was very poised and graceful, but I couldn't let go and express myself.

It was like lancing a long overdue wound and (the emotions) just came flowing out. I found that I could express myself, express my pain, express everything I was going through because it didn't have my name on it. At that age I was convinced that I was fooling the world into thinking it wasn't really my pain.